Thank you to Melissa Deally, host of “Don’t Wait For Your Wake Up Call” Podcast for inviting me on her show.

In this episode, I share my powerful story of how losing my mother led her on a journey of finding my own passion and purpose into a field of health and wellness.

“Verdell uses touch therapy, somatic experiences and more in her work to help the body get out of it’s “dis-ease” and back into health.  Verdell does readings for you, that will show exactly what your bodies needs from an energetic perspective, she is the translator for you, so that you can understand what your body is trying to ask for, and her message is don’t wait until things get really bad, if you aren’t feeling well, start to seek support to understand what your body needs now!”

Listen to this episode “Using Frequency To Guide Your Body’s Healing Journey” on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you listen to podcasts.

In order to understand attachment theory and healthy bonding between adoptee(s) and new parents we first must take a deeper look at understanding abandonment(loss of attachment).

Infants or toddlers of adoption have separation anxiety from the instant they are separated from their biological mother. This separation anxiety is an automatic biological response to being abandoned and discarded. Let’s be honest – I know this seem harsh but from their point of view this is the honest truth, this is what they are feeling internally. Everything they have known for the past 9 months in utero – felt, tasted, sensed, heard and experienced is gone when they are given up for adoption and taken away from their biological mother. They are stripped of everything familiar, everything within minutes of being born. This leaves the infant or child feeling unwanted, lost and over time are highly likely to experience self-image issues, troubles with personal relationships, potential developmental delays or learning disabilities, mood swings and behavioral issues and will constantly fear being abandoned again. They often develop amazing people pleasing skills and tolerate negative and abusive relationships for fear of abandonment.

Abandonment is a severe form of shock which leaves the infant with unconscious somatic memories associated with early losses therefore it is hard for a child to trust or build loving bonds with another. A fear is built into the nervous system that they are unlovable and will be given up again; this can lead to high level of anxiousness, insecurities and possibly compulsive behaviours as they try to cope with their internal sensations and irreconcilable emotions. The infant will try to internally manage their emotions and will figure out coping mechanisms that can easily go unnoticed such as gripping their stomach, tightening their muscles, from colic to anger or will entirely avoid engaging in any social engagement. Infants will respond differently to their new adoptive parents and their separation anxiety is highly personalized and unique.

Abandonment can also develop over time with neglectful or mis-attuned parents or parents who are overwhelmed and possibly ill equipped to soothe their new baby or be emotionally and physically available with their new addition. This can even stem from our own attachment styles, developmental trauma and for new mothers can bring up feelings of being inadequate or trauma around not being able to conceive or carry your own child. This can be extremely emotional and painful for a new adopted mothers.

The adoptee(s) may become stuck in one of two autonomic nervous responses – shutdown thus in a frozen state where they do not demand the attuned attention or emotional bonds of their care givers or in a fight/flight response thus hyper alert and aggravated to everyone and everything around them. If your baby is having colic, sleep issues or any digestive issues – these are red flag and it is really important to seek professional help if you notice these behaviours and patterns arising immediately. The sooner you can seek the assistance of a developmental expert who specializes in touch work for infants and children, then sooner ruptures and dysregulation can be repaired. I urge you to find a Somatic touch and Somatic Experiencing practitioner specializing in developmental trauma or contact me and I would be happy to assist to help find a practitioner in your area. Another option would be to fly your family to Vancouver, BC to see me for sessions or arrange for me to come to your home and work with you and your beautiful new child and family.

Recommendations for Adoptive Parents/New Parents:

• • Dig deep for compassion and patience as you are going to need an endless supply, a depth of compassion beyond what you ever thought was imaginable. Let’s talk science for a moment – endorphins and oxytocin (hormone of love) did not assist you to begin to signal labour so they will not be organically present when you attempt to bond with your new baby or child and their little system did not grow inside you get 9 months to regulate and to know your voices.

• Skin to skin holding is the best form of bonding. If you are able to be present at the birth of your child please arrange with the hospital a private room so that you and your partner can bond immediately with the infant with skin on skin. Speak in soft soothing voices and avoid any sudden loud noises or abrupt movements. The baby might have a heightened startle response given the “Shock” they are experiencing from being taken from their biological mother. Continue skin on skin contact at home for 3 weeks.

 

• Do not wear a mask ever around your babies, toddlers or children or make them ever wear a mask. All humans are dependent on facial cues to help them determine trust, emotions and if they are safe. These micro facial cues are extremely important to the development of a baby’s brain and for their long term mental health. Our nervous system is entirely stripped of any inputs if we are wearing masks.

 

• Let your infant decide when they are hungry. Do not put them on a feeding schedule, which you determine to be best for them. It is imperative to let the child decide and to learn their own body signalling system that lets them know when they are hungry, thirsty and tired. They should be feeding every few hours when they are newborn. You are now on their schedule – this is the best way to raise a healthy regulated child. Please buy Organic Formula, which does not have all the chemical fillers, corn or soy – https://www.beyondorganicbaby.com

 

• Place their crib right beside your bed (do not make them sleep in a separate room for at least 16 months). You need to foster a health attachment bond and that is only formed when you are physically and emotionally attached to one another. They need to be physically close so that they can see you. They do not need to learn how to self soothe right now or to be in a room by themselves for the first 2 years of their life. What they need to learn is how to trust that a human will always show up when they need someone or something. Do not let them self-soothe themself or cry it out – they need to learn that they can trust you will always be there to help them settle, that you will show up with every cry and every demand.

 

• Do not uses stroller, swing seats, jolly jumper or contraptions for the 16 months. Carry, hold or rock – this child needs quality human contact – physical and emotional contact. They do not need to be left alone in a chair, on the floor or in a stroller. Physical and emotional contact is essential for healthy attachment within the first 2 years of their life especially after adoption. North America is experiencing a touch deprived epidemic in infants, as we do not touch our infants enough instead we buy contraptions and devices to try to soothe a child rather then the parent. We need to bond and soothe by holding and emotionally connecting with the child rather then placing them in a battery operated swing or chair. They need to learn how to co-regulate with their new parents.

 

• Keep your promises and commitments – never go back on your word – you must be consistent and always be on time thus never giving them a sense that they are being abandoned, forgotten, or discarded.

 

• It is often hard to cope with instability and change when adopted. These children require greater stability in their life and need to be prepped for change days in advance. They do not like change or surprises. It will be really important to give them ample warning and preparation to anything new or any changes in plans or scheduling etc.

 

• Expression of healthy anger will be very important to foster as parents and to model to your child. Your child needs to know that anger is acceptable and can be expressed as their anger and sadness arises. Learn to grieve, express sadness, guilt, shame and anger as these will be essential to connect. Adopt children have lots of anger to process. Please help them to process it and make it okay to be mad and angry.

 

• Do not leave your child with relatives or allo-caregivers during the first 12 months of their life. Ideally, parents should not go on holidays or leave the child with anyone over night or for more then 1 or 2 hours. This is very confusing for an infant to comprehend where you have gone and if you will ever come back, particularly when you have been given up for adoption. It will create panic and abandonment symptoms may spike. The child may just shutdown and become unresponsive and stop putting any demands on their parents. (This is a big red flag when any infant becomes an excellent sleeper and does not need anything from his or her parents – stops crying and demanding much of any attention or begins to self harm). Infants should be placing demands on their parents every 2 to 3 hours, 24 hours around the clock.

 

If you have questions, please reach out. I offer one on one session to new parents and adoptee parents. No one teaches us how to be parents and there are no handbooks or how to guides for adopted children. Each adoption is different. Every child is very unique with its own bonding demands and nervous systems, which require different parenting styles and approaches. They require compassionate, patient and open parents that are willing to learn and focus or repairing their mistakes. Be gentle with yourself and extra gentle with your new baby or child.

How many times have you experienced little aches and pains in your body like a skin rash, poor digestion, sleeping problems, or migraines only to shrug it off as no big deal? Maybe you even came up with an excuse or an old wives tale to explain it?

In this fast paced world we often ignore our health and wellness in an effort to try to keep up.

But here’s the thing – our minds/bodies use emotional and physical pain as a messaging system, and when we keep ignoring this brilliant network of signals it gets louder and louder and louder. The body, in a last attempt to get your undivided attention, will manifest painful symptoms that are impossible to ignore like circulation problems, hormonal issues, and – yep you guessed it – skin conditions.

Now, I want to focus on skin conditions here because I’m especially fascinated by them. This might sound strange, but in my line of work (alternative health/wellness) whenever someone new comes in to see me with psoriasis, a mysterious rash, or eczema – I want to do a happy dance.

Why? Because of all the ways that we manifest psychological distress in the form of physical symptoms, skin conditions are the body’s most effective way of communicating with us. Unlike our internal organs, when something is wrong with our skin we know right away. Sadly this can bring an element of self-consciousness or embarrassment (especially if symptoms are present on the face), and sometimes excruciating pain, but we honestly need to thank the body for choosing to present its distress where we can physically see it. Your resilient body is trying to help you address the issue sooner rather than later.

There are numerous skin conditions and disorders with unique characteristics and symptoms, but here are some of the most common:

• Eczema
• Acne
• Seborrheic Dermatitis
• Skin Cancer
• Psoriasis
• Herpes Zoster (shingles)

What do these all have in common? Apart from being present on our skin?

They are all trying to assist our body and nervous system to eliminate toxins via the skin. Often an element of dysregulation is present in the body, for example – an imbalance in our digestive system (e.g. too acidic) or chronic stress. In my experience there is usually an element of suppressed anger kindled within the skin. Our skin loves to speak the words we have swallowed and have been too afraid to speak for all those years.

So what’s really going on?

Now, I don’t want it to sound like your painful condition is “all in your head.” It’s not. It’s the result of nervous system dysregulation which was caused by adverse experiences in your life. When I work 1:1 with clients we always begin with the nervous system and explore any events in their life, however major or minor, that might have caused the dysregulation to take place. Things like growing up in a stressful household, living with an alcohol-dependant parent, or being bullied in school can all cause this kind of dysregulation.

Why You Need to Avoid the Quick Fix and Get to the Root Cause:

If you’ve lived with a skin condition for even a few years you’ll probably be familiar with Cortisone – cream or injections. Cortisone is straight up a hormone produced by the adrenal cortex (stress gland). Hydrocortisone cream is a steroid. So essentially we are given a tube of stress to fight stress. This is so messed up, but often people feel as if they have no alternative but to try the cream. And sure – you might have benefited from short-term relief, but you’re not addressing the underlying issue and really listening to your body’s messaging system.

Seriously, the nervous system should be nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize as it’s constantly (and brilliantly) communicating to us, and putting out small fires before they get too big to manage and require serious medical interventions.

What’s surprising is that so often when these symptoms are shoved in our face we’re still unwilling to take a deeper look. Being willfully blind is definitely not the ideal approach when it comes to our health and wellness because we only get one chance at life and only get one body to live in. I recently had a new client come to see me with Psoriasis covering nearly 85% of his body. He was in so much pain that he found it impossible to find any comfortable positions, let alone try to sleep. Even wearing clothes or receiving physically touch from a loving partner was unbearable. Some of my past clients were in so much pain that taking their own life crossed their mind on numerous occasions.

I get it – when nothing has the ability to soothe the pain and discomfort you are physically in, it inevitably starts to eat away at your mental health regardless of how strong you believe you are. Nobody deserves to live like this. So please – listen to your body. If you want to seek out a professional I recommend looking for a Somatic Experiencing practitioner near you. Or any alternative health practitioner who specializes in nervous system health (and has a track record of success, of course).

Are you in Vancouver?

I’m taking on new clients and have 1:1 sessions available from February 15 – 29, 2016. If you’re interested in learning more about what’s involved in a Somatic Experiencing session with me click here.

Do you believe in entities? In dark forces? Spirits? It might sound like these things only belong in imaginary sci-fi worlds like Star Wars, but if there’s one thing I’ve learned as a healer and alternative health practitioner it’s that just because we aren’t always able to understand other realities doesn’t mean they don’t exist. Just because you can’t “feel” any entities around you doesn’t mean they’re not there.

Now – I’m not saying this to freak you out. Far from it. This can be scary stuff for a lot of people which is why I really encourage you to take this info in with curiosity rather than fear.

Deal?

Before I go into the types of entities and how to remove them, I want to share the story of my first encounter with a possessed person. It was 2012 and my latest “healing arts pilgrimage” had led me to Paris, France. With the help of Google I met some influential healers, and after explaining the kind of work I do in my private practice (gentle touch-based somatic work) one of them asked if I would consider helping his friend’s daughter. She was 21-years old and suffering from Anorexia. I quickly agreed and a few days later I met her for lunch.

At that point in my life I had honestly never even spoken the word “possessed” or given it any thought, but the moment I met her I knew she was possessed. Even I was a little taken aback by the experience. It’s difficult to put into words, but it was something in her eyes that gave it away – possibly the hollowness of them, or what appeared to be a kind of soullessness. As soon as we began talking I became certain of it. Each sentence she spoke strengthened my theory and also had an element of self-realization to it (maybe subconsciously she knew):

“I feel as though someone is controlling me … I feel as though it is not me choosing not to eat … I feel as though I am always lead down the wrong path in life … I feel like I have no direction … I feel as if I have no friends and something is always sabotaging my ability to connect with others …”

I left the meeting feeling uncertain because this was my first encounter with anything like that. A few weeks later I learned that the head teacher in the group confirmed she was in fact possessed and that he was working with her to the remove the entity. Goosebumps!

The Difference Between Ghosts and Entities:

I want to debunk any false beliefs you may have. In my private practice I work with numerous children who have the ability to see ghosts. Often these children are highly sensitive and have a much stronger connection with the metaphysical world than most people. Occasionally I work with adults too who have the ability to see ghosts, spirits, and auras.

Typically people are afraid of them, but these spirits are generally harmless and just want to say “hello,” “goodbye,” or are telling us that they are leaving now and are requesting your help and/or attention. They’re not trying to hurt you so please acknowledge them and try to help them depart the earth realm, which they feel trapped on. If you ever feel a sort of “sixth sense” that you’re not alone then there might be a spirit or ghost around.

*Helpful spirit removal tip:

purchase some dry sage, light it on fire, then blow the flame out so it is just smoldering. I like to hold it over a ceramic or glass bowl to collect all the debris from the sage as I walk around the room in a clockwise direction paying particular attention to all the corners – both down low and up high. It is also helpful to create a mantra and to repeat it as you cleanse your space. It can be as simple as “whatever does not have my permission to be in my space must please leave now and please return to the light.” Sometimes a sage smudge is not enough to remove the ghost or spirit and a local healer should be contacted.

Unfortunately entities are a different story and can’t be removed with a simple sage smudge and mantra. Entities actually feed off of the energy of other beings, and unless they’re removed they will stay with us until death. They’re much more invasive and can actually embody us without us knowing. They come in all forms – human-like, spirit, demonic, insects, dragons, reptilians, etc. If you can imagine it, it is probably possible.

The 3 Types of Entities:

1) The Hitchhiker:

This type of entity is just catching a lift on you. They could be with you for just a short time, or hangout with you like a double shadow for an indefinitely amount of time, similar to a backpack. Sometimes you can catch a glimpse of them out of your eye.

2) The Parasite:

Like leeches that suck the energy out of us, parasitic entities cause us to feel drained of energy, always tired, and possibly irritable. Over time they can create physical illness in the body which mainstream medical professionals cannot explain.

3) The Possessor:

The most devastating form is possession, like the young French girl I mentioned. In this case the individual is actually being controlled by another form within them.

Why Entities Attach to People and Why Some People Are More Likely to Attract Them:

Entities are dark beings who get their power from taking the power of other beings. They resonate at a low frequency and are attracted to those who also resonate at a low frequency. This means there are some people who are, or who can become, energetically vulnerable to entity attachment.

From my experience. the people most likely to have or attract entities are those who:

• are continually weak, or ill
• experienced abuse (emotional, sexual, or physical) and trauma as a child
• have had surgeries or near death experiences (out of body)
• are hospitalized
• are addicted or have been addicted to drugs and alcohol.

For example, it is quite common for individuals who were born prematurely to have a greater connection to the metaphysical realms, but also to have had a higher exposure to entities. Isolation and lack of human contact lends itself to a greater connection to the outer realms. When in a incubator we are alone, isolated, afraid, deprived of human connection and physical contact which creates the perfect environment for entities to prey and to attach themselves.

Some Signs You May Have an Entity:

• as children we may have experienced behaviour outbursts
• always negative, always attracting darkness
• trouble sleeping, and sometimes wake up in the middle of the night feeling pinned to your bed and unable to move
• chronic fatigue
• always irritable
• afraid of the dark
• constantly checking over shoulders, hearing faint noises
• physical health conditions that leave your doctors very puzzled
• drastic change in eating behaviour
• feel as though someone is controlling you

Here’s the thing – entities are extremely good at hiding and can quickly morph or simply disappear out of sight. In saying that, once they’re discovered they’re typically easy to remove. Surprisingly there are more than a handful of individuals who have the ability to remove entities; they are not as rare as you might think.

Do you want help releasing an entity or negative energy?

I’m taking on new clients and have 1:1 sessions available. If you’re interested in learning more about what’s involved in a Somatic Experiencing session with me click here.